Just Stop

May 14th, 2010

Music is a beautiful sensory device which causes pleasure that can turn into a distraction if not used responsibly.

This past week I’ve been forced into inactivity after getting all four of my wisdom teeth out. I’ve been stunned at just how much a procedure like that can slow down thought processes let alone one’s physical activity. Until today It’s been hard to think clearly, hard to read, hard to focus on much of anything. So I’ve been taking the opportunity to catch up on sleep since that seems to be the only thing I’ve been able to do well. But the times I wasn’t sleeping were not boring even though I didn’t really do anything. I didn’t think about anything particularly interesting, nor did I listen to vast amounts to sermons or musical literature. I just was, and being in such a state is beautiful. In fact I’d go as far as you say it’s where we find our purpose.

“By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work. And God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done.”

“Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates. For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.”

“‘If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath
and from doing as you please on my holy day,
if you call the Sabbath a delight
and the LORD’s holy day honorable,
and if you honor it by not going your own way
and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,

then you will find your joy in the LORD,
and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land
and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob.’
The mouth of the LORD has spoken.”

I’m not saying that there is a command from God to not do anything at all once a week (Jesus was clearly against this interpretation). I’m saying that if you just take the time once a week to stop diverting your attention with the physical world and focus on delighting in life itself, you’ll realize that these moments are why we exist. If you don’t delight in it, your life could be so much better. Taking pleasure when there’s nothing to take pleasure in outside of being alive is to sit on the white shores of eternity, taking in the beauty of a perfection outside your comprehension. This is the state of mind that only the sabbath rest of the creator can give you. This is the rest that nothing can ever take from you if you will simply take the time to go there.

Just stop. Turn it off. See where the default state of your heart and mind is. Discontent? Try God. Try eternity. I hope to see you there.


Professional Musicians?

May 2nd, 2010

I want to make something very clear before I start:  Some people have recently confronted me with the fact that many people don’t believe that there is a God (or that he is not who he says he is).  A few people have even unfriended me on Facebook out of anger because I say what I know to be true (How’s that for religious tolerance?  I could understand leaving my website group, but wow…).  They think that my approach to reasoning through these discourses is flawed because I assume that everyone agrees that God exists. The thing is, if we are going to be held accountable for the things we did here on earth after we die, and if God did reveal his word to us which we are expected to obey, and he did make the atoning sacrifice so that our sins could be forgiven provided that we believe and behave in accordance with that belief, then that changes everything.  To not mention God in my arguments would be to say things that I don’t believe to be true.  If you want to say anything about how to live life at all, you have to choose whether you’re living for yourself, or living for the Creator.  I happen to know God, and I happen to talk to him every day through prayer and the study of his word.  I don’t simply think he exists; I know he does and I’m in very good company.  I will never post anything outside this context.  Moving on…

Not professional in the sense that one is trained and very good at what they do, but simply in that one makes most of their income from writing and playing music.  My new CD, Purpose, is hopefully coming this June (although it may end up being later since life keeps happening) and it has been causing me to reflect very deeply on the purpose God intended music to serve.  Each purpose that I’ve considered while writing the music for this project does not seem to require the existence of professional musicians.  While the project itself proves that a very high artistic level is pleasing, it is being done by students who will probably never make the majority of their income from performing or composing.  If I myself stay the course I am on, I will never be a professional composer but I will be a teacher.  For some time now I’ve been bitter about this and have had a desire to make a valiant attempt to work out a way for professional composers to actually exist to the extent that I could hope to become one.  But I’m beginning to see that the purpose of music can be fulfilled without people generating most of their income from it.

At this point we have to establish what purpose God originally intended music to fulfill.  My subjective explanation is that the all encompassing purpose of music is to communicate difficult concepts decisively and in a different way.  For example, I was told by many people that my abortion piece provoked tears.  This indicates to me that the music effectively communicated what I intended, which was to depict abortion for what it is.  Obviously, God has blessed that work with the ability to communicate its intended message very effectively.  To me this is a clear demonstration that music can teach us things that can be difficult to express in other ways.  That piece taught me personally just how awful and devastating abortion is, and yet I’ve perceived countless hours of very good presentations devoted to the subject.  Once I finished that recording and listened to it, I understood  the situation much more clearly than I ever had previously.  “Music is communication.”

In order for this purpose of effective teaching/communication to be fulfilled, musicians being paid is not at all a prerequisite.  Replace my proposed purpose with something else and you will most likely be able to reach the same conclusion.  Extensive knowledge and skill is a prerequisite, but myself and all of the people I call my peers are already fulfilling these purposes and none of us are making a living by making music.  Apparently music’s purpose is being fulfilled without any significant amount of money being paid.

I suppose I must now address how I justify undergraduate and graduate level studies while knowing that my education is relatively useless for generating a larger income.  As believers, since when has anything God led us to do been for the sake of our own selfish pleasure?  Since when has God called us to make an enormous commitment like college in order to indulge our desire for more wealth?  My education in music composition has not been for the sake of me generating an income, but rather to serve by effectively communicating truth that can’t be expressed in any other way.  I would not be able to write like I do had I not had the training that God clearly called me to endure.  Graduate study has been the only way for me to be prepared to serve the church in the way that God wants me to serve.

Don’t just give a gift, be a gift.


Abortion

March 28th, 2010

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

“For he did not kill me in the womb, with my mother as my grave, her womb enlarged forever.”

“Even Elizabeth your relative is going to have a child in her old age, and she who was said to be barren is in her sixth month”…When Elizabeth heard Mary’s greeting, the baby leaped in her womb, and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit.”

“Make the heart of this people calloused; make their ears dull and close their eyes. Otherwise they might see with their eyes, hear with their ears, understand with their hearts, and turn and be healed.”

“He who has ears, let him hear.”

Abortion(Click to listen)


Purpose: Coming This June

March 18th, 2010

The purpose of life is to love God and love others.

  1. The First Song
    -Piano

    The purpose of music is to express emotions that cannot be explained in words.

  2. Hide and Seek
    -synthesizer and saxophone

    The purpose of music is to encourage people with internal struggles.

  3. Abortion
    -piano and saxophone

    The purpose of music is to turn our hearts against social injustice.

  4. Insentience
    -double bass

    The purpose of music is to intensify our longing for the kingdom to come.

  5. Essence Altered
    -Clarinet and Saxophone

    The purpose of music is to celebrate unseen beauty.

  6. Application
    -piano and timpani

    The purpose of music is to entertain.

  7. Discovery
    -piano, violin, and euphonium

    The purpose of music is to make us more like children.

  8. Proclamation
    -Violin and Clarinet

    The purpose of music is to direct our focus to God.

  9. Vivid Daydream
    -electronic

    The purpose of music is to liberate our minds and make us more creative.

Webcast Premier

March 16th, 2010

Cassie and I will be premiring a piece of mine tonight and it will be webcast. Feel free to tune in at 7:30pm (eastern) via this link. I’ll be playing after 8:00, but there’s a lot of good stuff on the program you won’t want to miss.

Hope you can listen! If not it will end up on YouTube and you can see it later.

Click here to link to the channel.

Click here to link to the program notes.

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